“In that book which is my memory,
On the first page of the chapter that is the day when I first met you, Appear the words, ‘Here begins a new life’.”
― Dante Alighieri, Vita Nuova
Dear self, how many chapters have we gone so far? How many hardship have we gone through? I know it’s hard but hang on a little while! Things will be all right! Worry no more; sigh no more…You’re great and you’re fine!
“You’re now thirty two. Making your own money, having a good job, you travel. What about settling down with somebody and a family?” so people say. Yes self, I know that every day is an effort to be better at this: living a life.
I’m sorry! I’m so sorry for you to feel that way. I often wonder why do you keep your struggles out in the open? Why do you wear your heart on your sleeve? I am sorry that you sometimes have to smile when you want to cry. I am sorry when you have to remain strong while you want to drop things off. I am sorry for all those times you have to spend on your own. What is to be gained in making a fool out of yourself? These are questions you and I have been asking for so long and for which we both don’t necessarily have the answers.
I know, self that you have promised yourself some sort of transformation. A metamorphosis of some kind: growing into a person that you need and not everyone wants. It is not easy to be a super woman. Mind them not, self; go to your road less travelled. It’s always new people to meet, new places to go, new things to write and new memories to make. Trying it like you go trying a dress, this being human, which you must be tired of by now. But when you do, please remember Rumi. You welcome whatever comes in life and entertain them all
Ah self, remember Kafka’s remark “I cannot make you understand. I cannot make anyone understand what is happening inside me. I cannot even explain it to myself.”
Dear self, stand still and smile…for your old soul is stronger than the thunder. Raise your glass as you are about celebrating a new chapter of your life. Worry not! For we always have Florence and Dante Alighieri
🎂Happy birthday, old soul. Happy birthday, old fool!🎂